Episode 02 - The new name
A week later, the
government gave me a new house and a car and a job in a sales company in
downtown. Not only that, but the government also gave me a new name.
"Hello "
" Hey…"
" Have you signed all the files I gave you! sir."
" Oh I
forgot.. just five minutes I am going to do "
"
No problem .. just tell me what’s your name!"
" Emm my name .. is not
mentioned in the files !! "
" Sorry !!"
"
that is it .. "I am the survivor " … the storm do you remember?"
"Oh, you then !... I am
really sorry I did not realize that. Many new employees have come today."
"No
problem "
My trip has begun that moment when I knew my
name .. I said that if the most distinguishing characteristic of the human
being is the name, I must take an adventure. I went to work and established new
relationships. I received lessons and learned languages. I travelled to several
places and saw the difference between people in terms of languages, cultures
and religions. It was a strange world for me so that I acted like a two-year-old
child, And I am in the age of 30 .. I had a lot of questions and fun so that
delighted everyone around me. Everyone was envying me I was quick and intuitive
dealing with the people .. This is probably what I see in everyone around me
But I was probably the opposite .. I was always feeling lack of something and I
was really tired of seeing pity in everyone's eyes "Every morning I wake
up early. I practice sports. As usual, I see Uncle Fatih the barber receiving
his customers with a wonderful smile and entertaining them with his amusing
bank. Captain Djamal is a solid structure that everyone respects. Reda the
genius in science and my neighbour Moad and his son Ilias and colleagues in the work were all
representing me "The most important question is" Who am I? "
What space do I belong to? Did I serve as Captain Djamal ?? ... No, of course
not, I do not have a structure like him, or maybe I was like Reda the first boy
in his college. Perhaps I was a responsible father and I had a family wife and
children ............ how shall I
know??.
The days passed and I
did not go to the hospital to receive the tests as usual. I was bored with the
same talk and the same expectations. I was bored with the questions and the
waiting and the exaggerated talk that was going on between me and myself. I was
tired of everything , and I had a period of sick leave and tried to relax
... I was suffering from depression and a feeling of not wanting anything.
To be continued - Episode 03
To be continued - Episode 03
