Who I am Episode 02- The new name

Episode 02 - The new name

 A week later, the government gave me a new house and a car and a job in a  sales company in downtown. Not only that, but the government also gave me a new name.

        "Hello "

"        Hey…"

"        Have you signed all the files I gave you!  sir."

"        Oh  I forgot.. just five minutes I am going to do "

       " No problem .. just tell me what’s your name!"

       " Emm my name .. is not mentioned in the files !! "

       " Sorry !!"

        " that is it .. "I am the survivor " … the storm do you remember?"

      "Oh, you then !... I am really sorry I did not realize that. Many new employees have come today."

        "No problem "

     My trip has begun that moment when I knew my name .. I said that if the most distinguishing characteristic of the human being is the name, I must take an adventure. I went to work and established new relationships. I received lessons and learned languages. I travelled to several places and saw the difference between people in terms of languages, cultures and religions. It was a strange world for me so that I acted like a two-year-old child, And I am in the age of 30 .. I had a lot of questions and fun so that delighted everyone around me. Everyone was envying me I was quick and intuitive dealing with the people .. This is probably what I see in everyone around me But I was probably the opposite .. I was always feeling lack of something and I was really tired of seeing pity in everyone's eyes "Every morning I wake up early. I practice sports. As usual, I see Uncle Fatih the barber receiving his customers with a wonderful smile and entertaining them with his amusing bank. Captain Djamal is a solid structure that everyone respects. Reda the genius in science and my neighbour Moad and his son  Ilias and colleagues in the work were all representing me "The most important question is" Who am I? " What space do I belong to? Did I serve as Captain Djamal ?? ... No, of course not, I do not have a structure like him, or maybe I was like Reda the first boy in his college. Perhaps I was a responsible father and I had a family wife and children ............  how shall I know??.

    The days passed and I did not go to the hospital to receive the tests as usual. I was bored with the same talk and the same expectations. I was bored with the questions and the waiting and the exaggerated talk that was going on between me and myself. I was tired of everything , and I had a period of sick leave and tried to relax ... I was suffering from depression and a feeling of not wanting anything.
To be continued - Episode 03

Who I am - episode 01 - In the hospital

"all I was puzzled about is how the human mind can work with all this precision and connect events and any simple defect in it cost you your life .."

Who I am

A short story was written by

Amina Mahaoui

2018

Episode 01 - In the hospital

"Are you still alive !!"

" Probably .. I don’t think so !" 

"Your heart beats low you should take rest "

"How !! how can I take rest ?" 

"How do you feel right now ?" 

"I feel !.. I don’t know what the hell I’m feeling .. I’m just .. You know .. I have no idea what’s going on around me !!"

" It was like a strong storm blew inside you and destroyed everything.. "

"Storm !! How did all this happen ???"

"Didn’t matter .. Try to sleep now."

"I have to Know …"

"What do you want to know !?"

"Everything (…)"

"You have nothing to know ."

"Just tell me .. what the hell I am !"

Two months ago, I was the only survivor of a natural disaster that took place in the city where I lived and lasted for two weeks, causing a material and human losses. It was a severe shock to the neighbouring peoples, my survival was "miraculous" this is what the doctors said, but I wished if they have not found me, no family... no friends... no memories.. nothing to remember .. I feel empty... it’s like when you lose everything even yourself .. I am wondering what were my dreams, my attitudes, my behaviours, how was my family !! how was my life !!.. but unfortunately! only a dark memory inside my head. I was exhausted physically and spiritually, a wanderer trying to find answers to my questions. The hardest thing was the "waiting" the deadly waiting, I was sitting in the same place every day at a corner of the hospital waiting for Someone who knows me or tells me about one of my relatives, but I quickly became fed up and decided to skip all this and accept this situation, after the recent medical examination, the doctor ordered me to rush to life, practice sport and establish social relationships. It may help to restore memory and not to aggravate my condition. "One of the symptoms of post-traumatic amnesia" was an exceptional case at that time, doctors never faced such a situation; The problem was the total loss of memory that I was exposed to. In such a case, either I may recover my memory after a period of time or go back to the coma I was in, and thus my condition will worsen more and more.

To be continued - Episode 02