"all I was puzzled about is how the human mind can work with all this precision and connect events and any simple defect in it cost you your life .."
Who I am
A short story was written by
Amina Mahaoui
2018
Episode 01 - In the hospital
"Are you still alive !!"
" Probably .. I don’t think so !"
"Your heart beats low you should take rest "
"How !! how can I take rest ?"
"How do you feel right now ?"
"I feel !.. I don’t know what the hell I’m feeling .. I’m just .. You know .. I have no idea what’s going on around me !!"
" It was like a strong storm blew inside you and destroyed everything.. "
"Storm !! How did all this happen ???"
"Didn’t matter .. Try to sleep now."
"I have to Know …"
"What do you want to know !?"
"Everything (…)"
"You have nothing to know ."
"Just tell me .. what the hell I am !"
Two months ago, I was the only survivor of a natural disaster that took place in the city where I lived and lasted for two weeks, causing a material and human losses. It was a severe shock to the neighbouring peoples, my survival was "miraculous" this is what the doctors said, but I wished if they have not found me, no family... no friends... no memories.. nothing to remember .. I feel empty... it’s like when you lose everything even yourself .. I am wondering what were my dreams, my attitudes, my behaviours, how was my family !! how was my life !!.. but unfortunately! only a dark memory inside my head. I was exhausted physically and spiritually, a wanderer trying to find answers to my questions. The hardest thing was the "waiting" the deadly waiting, I was sitting in the same place every day at a corner of the hospital waiting for Someone who knows me or tells me about one of my relatives, but I quickly became fed up and decided to skip all this and accept this situation, after the recent medical examination, the doctor ordered me to rush to life, practice sport and establish social relationships. It may help to restore memory and not to aggravate my condition. "One of the symptoms of post-traumatic amnesia" was an exceptional case at that time, doctors never faced such a situation; The problem was the total loss of memory that I was exposed to. In such a case, either I may recover my memory after a period of time or go back to the coma I was in, and thus my condition will worsen more and more.
To be continued - Episode 02
